can't be my friend

Last night, I thought I died
Woke up six feet beneath my bed, I opened up my eyes
My head on fire, can't pretend
I ain't been tellin' lies, I call you up to make amends
You say: Don't even try
You know I'll fuck it up again

I feel like I'm runnin' underwater
Me against myself, I never win
And how come all my demons get along, but
I can't be my friend?

So when my future calls, I keep my phone on silent
Act like it's not my fault, I blame it on Verizon
I keep romanticizin' all my toxic tendencies
If I can't be my own best friend
Then I'll be my worst enemy, oh, yeah

And I feel like I'm runnin' underwater
Me against myself, I never win
And how come all my demons get along, but
I can't be my friend?

I guess maybe karma finally caught up
Swear, I know exactly how it ends
I know I'm the only one I got, but
I can't be my friend