When And If

I wrote her a letter yesterday
Told her that I'm fine
That I can't wait to come on back
And make up for lost time
The same life I promised her before
I'm going to give her when I opened that door

They say I'm here to fight their cause
And that I could die trying
I'd like to think their aim is true
But I think that they're lying
The same life I was living well before
I'm taking back soon as I open that door

Lord, will I live to see that day?
Deliver me a sign
?Cause it is only a matter of time
Before I lose my mind
Yeah, I'm losing my mind

The same life I was living well before
I'm taking back soon as I open that door
?Cause every day I wake up to this war
I load up my gun and I can't tell you what for

I wrote her a letter yesterday
Told her that I'm fine
I may not see her ever again
But I'm gonna die trying
I'm gonna die trying
I'm gonna die trying? die trying