sucker punch (feat. Clark Rainbow)

I look so stupid right now
But it's all sunshine and rainbows
Make funny faces in the mirror
I guess it's all downhill from here

Sucker punch right to the jaw
I guess the joke is all on me
I try to laugh it off
But I can barely speak

There's always gotta be a loser and for you, I wanna play it well
Throw darts at the wall with my face on, sink me deeper in your wicked spell
Hallucinating collectively, serenading me, I drift towards the sweetest smell
You crush my head with an anvil, I don't know any different
I'm making you smile, the reason why I exist
A thousand blades cut me up, I tell a lie in my story
Then you ask me for more, I know the truth is just shit
She's just a clown in your parlor and she'll dance if you ask her
I can be whatever you want, she's fabricating the answer
When my tears start to fall, I desperately try to hide
Turn and look up at the ceiling, hope they go back inside
Please don't think that I'm bad, nothing less than your perfect punching bag

Sucker punch right to the jaw
I guess the joke is all on me
I try to laugh it off
But I can barely speak

Let's live inside my distorted reality
A dollhouse in my mind, we play pretend to pass the time
And I'll construct a lie to make myself someone you'll like
A flawless alibi, slowly eating me alive

Sucker punch right to the jaw
I guess the joke is all on me
I try to laugh it off but I can barely speak
Pluck stars out of the sky, a symphony for you
Everything feels wrong, I'm scared of losing you

I get too attached and pull back
Supernova total collapse
A wind up toy, you hold the key
I'll disappear completely

Sucker punch right to the jaw
I guess the joke is all on me
I try to laugh it off but I can barely speak
It's all led up to this
Your imprint marcates my life's work
I'm nothing without you