Wiser

Paper girl
Painted smile
Say I'm fine but
Haven't meant it in a while

Laugh it off
Make a joke
Cover up the sadness
Living in my bones

'Cause I want to be
On the other side
Looking back at the dark times
Talking about how I made
It through the rain again

But I'm scared of how
Long I've been
Trying to wait out the
Storm I'm in
And there's no relief in sight

When I got older
I thought I'd be wiser
Thought I'd have more answers
Than questions by now

But I still don't feel like
I know what I'm doing
How long will it take me
To figure it out?

Sensitive
As a kid
Never sure of where
Exactly I fit in

Wore my heart
On display
Took for granted
I would toughen up someday

So why am I still
So defined
By the need to be well-liked
Letting everybody else
Determine what I'm worth

Set myself up
To get hurt
Wonder how much
I deserve
At war with my own mind

When I got older
I thought I'd be wiser
Thought I'd have more answers
Than questions by now

But I still don't feel like
I know what I'm doing
How long will it take me
To figure it out?

And whatever happened
To the life I was promised?
Told I could be anything
If I work the hardest

Instead I was handed
A world that's so broken
And you act surprised when
I say it seems hopeless

When I got older
I thought I'd be wiser
Thought I'd have more answers
Than questions by now

But I still don't feel like
I know what I'm doing
How long will it take me
To figure it out?