Rear View

I haven’t spoken to you in a long time
But it feels like yesterday I left your car a lonely kid
With tears in my eyes

What did you expect from me?
A little kid too fucking weak
To stand up to my enemies
Dad come on, I’m just thirteen
I’ll never be your prodigy
Accept that it’s not meant to be
I’m sorry for falling short

The things that I left behind don’t make me upset
Cause your apologies
They never meant that much to me
I’m so sick of trying to fight this sense of contempt
Cause your priorities
They never once included me

You’re patiently waiting in this hole again
But I kept in my head and to myself
So force your ways on someone else
You never gave me room to grow on my own

I feigned my interests in
All your hobbies
Just so I could have a shot
At making you happy
You know I tried
God, how I tried
But it’s so hard with no similarities

The things that I left behind don’t make me upset
Cause your apologies
They never meant that much to me
I’m so sick of trying to fight this sense of contempt
Cause your priorities
They never once included me

You’re patiently waiting in this hole again
But I kept in my head and to myself
So force your ways on someone else
You never gave me room to grow on my own

It took some time, but I find comfort in this message that I write
Cause you weren’t much to lose
I never needed you

It was time to shed that callus skin
Cause you were too hard on me
So I’ll say goodbye to all the times you called

And breathed honesty
And breathed honesty
And breathed honesty