Hope is Lost in Glass Rain

I'm desperate for will to forget you
But although my memory tails shamelessly
Your face is burned in way too deep
And my mind starts pouring lies out over me

Shards of glass flash in front of me
I can not tell truth from my own fantasies
Shards of glass show what used to be
It's hard to tell even what it is
I think I see
Shards of glass falling endlessly
When my mind plays tricks constantly
Testament of my sanity

Tragic how dementia grabs hold of me;
My decrepit mind is slowly falling
A descent so loud it's scaring me
From afar I hear my madness calling

I begin to express this deep, deep longing
But loose my words almost instantly
It feels like it once was significant
But comes out as pure lunacy

Don't think less of me
Just because I broke

Would you withstand
A tide so strong
I stood in it's way
Forlorn

Feels like letting go
I don't have to know
When it finally comes
I will leave with it at once

Leave me be
I don't want you to see
And remember this reject
Undignified and dead

There is a reverence in seeing
long awaited lunacy finally setting in
But the indignity of something that once
stood so proud falling down is wrong
How any man could be asked to bare it
I do not know

I can no longer see my reflection
in these shards of glass
and now I see that all this time
the glass puppet was me