Supposed To Be (feat. Sangarang)

This isn't how it's supposed to be
The people I should love most I don't hold close to me
Now I'm thinking bout the person that I chose to be
I need to reevaluate what really means the most to me yeah

My parents wondering where I'm at
Never pick up the phone well here's a song that answers that
I been depressed cause there's ideas in my head
That haven't come to life I'm fearful that my dream is dead

See I thought that I'd step into the lights by now
Thought my music would've lived up to the hype by now
Thinking it was built up in my mind right now
I could really use a little bit of advice right now yeah

What's the deal it's the real me all y'all straight up kill me
Everything in my craft just so you can feel me
Huh I sacrificed it all for music
Now I'm about to blow a gasket if this rap producer screw me Imma snap

I sacrificed it all for music
I sacrificed it all for music

I'm not one to count my blessings
More likely to count my Twitter followers and mentions
My parent's set me up for all of this success and I
Snap because the lack of double taps has got me stressin'

Social media goin' be the death of me, rest in peace
Pressing keys texting peeps send me beats, I'm desperate anything
I can't focus at work because my head is playing melodies
But they don't fuck with my shit cuz I don't rap about felonies

Tell me this shit ain't raw tell me that my shit is flawed
Tell me I won't fuck these rappers up
Till they drinking through straws yeah
I swear to God Imma sell out on my craft
Just start rapping about all of the fucking money I don't have

But that's the mentality that puts you on a puppet string
So when I'm home and you asking what's been up with me
Try and understand the pressure I been going through
If music doesn't work out the fuck am I supposed to do

What the fuck am I supposed to do
If music doesn't work out the fuck am I supposed to do
What the fuck am I supposed to do
If music doesn't work out the fuck am I supposed to do