Across Five Years

i said i'm crazy one more time
picked up the phone and wondered why
so many years of hidden
dreams pushed down too far to ever win
locked doors
and hidden ghosts denied by myself with every joke
this was not
this could never be me remembering so many times so many lies
so many lies
ran so fast the years passed blind
so much
time lost killing five
whatever poision you may
drink another list of "no's" persist
antique and out of reach
i lost my life and take it back
crashed this side of happiness
hit the floor or hit and miss without the strength to follow through
walked right past this life in you
just one more kiss just one more chance
one more life or circumstance one more call taking a chance on circumstance