Heart Attack

7am and the kitten jumps on top of the TV so innocently
And knocks the antenna off onto the bed
And it lands on the chest of this still ball of stress
7am and the pendulum swayed
I hear myself cry out in peace and in pain

The timebomb explodes and my heart ignites
With a burst of white light pure as the first taste of life
It paralyzed and freed me, it stunned and released me
It summarized me in a word I can't say

And all of my life was shown to me at once
And I saw the total of who I'd become
As if in the end we add up to a number
Like finding the answer to all that you are

Afraid if I move I might trigger my own death
So gently I cling to control over my breath
My left shoulder burning from all I've been carrying
Buried alive under my collapsed chest

I lift as my sense of what maters has changed
For I saw the eyes of a Heavenly face
That waits in a place that I no longer fear
As I cherish my every last day I'm still here…

What probably will get me is a car crash in Jersey
And I just can't wait anymore