I Keep Myself Company

I used to fill the silence
With somebody else's skin
Afraid of empty evenings
Afraid of listening in

Now the room doesn't echo
It listens when I speak
Every thought sits gently
No one rushing me

I don't light candles for absence
I don't romanticize pain
I learned how to stay present
Without asking to be saved

I keep myself company
And I don't feel alone
My reflection doesn't argue
It finally feels like home

I don't wait for someone
To tell me I'm enough
I sit with who I am
And somehow, that is love

There's comfort in routines
That don't belong to anyone
Mornings without explanations
Nights that owe me none

I used to chase connection
Like it was air to breathe
Now I trust the quiet
And the quiet trusts me

I don't close doors in anger
I don't stay out of fear
If love comes, it will find me
Already standing here

I keep myself company
No mask, no disguise
I meet my own eyes
And they don't look away this time

If someone walks beside me
They'll meet me as I am
Not a half asking for shelter
But a man who understands

Being alone stopped feeling like waiting
When I stopped waiting for myself

I keep myself company
And I stay
No running, no escape
Just staying

If love is coming home
Without knocking on the door
Then I've already arrived
And I don't need more

Stillness
Breath
Here