Paint Me A Picture

Silence on the telephone gave me space to fill it with resent
But how I wanted you to hold me, how I wanted you to smile and take my hand
Pain pulled you back to a place words couldn’t describe, that I couldn’t see in your eyes
And yes I know I didn’t look hard enough and oh how I wish I’d tried
Instead of pushing you aside

So paint me a picture and I’ll tell you what I see
I see the pain in your eyes when you’re staring back at me
And oh how could I break it, trust built from the bone
And now I know your side of the story I struggle to see my own
I struggle to see my own

Fitful feverish slumbers wrenched up things I wanted to forget
Looking the past in the face, I wanted to be anything but that
Took me back to a place that held me in chains
Where people screamed my name
It’s hard to confess how much I loved being a stranger in that place
Telling made up stories, fitting a different person to my face

And I hate how much my mouth just talks sometimes
Maybe I’m not trustworthy, maybe you’re right
Now it’s so hard to discern my wrong from right
Oh I’m so sorry I’ll try hard to find it