Torn

"One could say I drowned my inner child in my own tears. Words like happiness and carelessness are lost to me. After all the things I've gone through and after all the bad I've seen and done, how could the world ever be the same for me? There are no survivors in a war. I may stand and breathe before you now, but I still died on those fields."

Slowly I walk toward the end of today
Could I set with the sun
And never rise again?
Every now and then I feel
Like I just can't pretend anymore
When my past is catching up with me

A silent cry for a life torn apart
A solitary tear for all the needless grief
Can you hear me now?
Screaming down here
After years in pain I won't just fade away!

Looking from this prison
My past has built me
Into a future that lies unknown
While these neverending
Nightmares haunt me
I am a man whose soul is torn

For a moment I think I hear
The sound of thunder
It's taking me back to the fields
Where my nightmares were born
Every now and then I can't help but wonder
What is left of the man I used to be?