Withered

I can't even remember the first time you led me down this path
Fuck!
I never once in my life
Thought I could ever feel much lower than this

This book is open; I try to pour my thoughts out
On these pages but my will is broken the fear is setting in
I could give you everything you need
But I think the motivation's leaving me

Every day is the same dark feeling
Time's fleeting, anger's leaving me
It's getting harder to relate and release
This road is pulling away from what I want
But that's okay, some things are easier missed
I'd rather fail than sit and wish

So why would I quit?
So why would I quit?, yeah
Maybe indecisiveness is the winner
Shadow's getting bigger
My soul starts to crumble and wither
And I think I'm losing all control

Where's that old fire that I'd pride myself for always holding inside?
Guess I could stop pretending to be something I'm not
Is it something I want, or is it something I've got?
It's time to stop second guessing every single thought
I think I've lost

Scraping the bottom of the fucking barrel from the start
How could I be so pathetic?

Every day is the same dark feeling
Time's fleeting, anger's leaving me
It's getting harder to relate and release
This road is pulling away from what I want
But that's okay, some things are easier missed
I'd rather fail than sit and wish

Every line's the same, they're all the fucking same
I think the motivation's leaving me
It's like the answer's right in front of me
But old me won't let go of me
The answer's there in front of me
But old me'd never let me see

Every day is the same dark feeling
Time's fleeting, anger's leaving me
It's getting harder to relate and release
This road is pulling away from what I want
But that's okay, some things are easier missed
I'd rather fail than sit and wish

It's like the answer's right in front of me
But old me won't let go of me
The answer's there in front of me
But old me'd never let me see