I.D.K.

There are so many things
I would like to say
But they're stuck in my throat
I think I'll just puke it away

It's been so much time
I haven't heard about you
And I keep wondering why
I don't know what to do

And my stomach hurts every time I say your name
My eyes start to cry thinking it was all in vain

I don't know how to start
Or even how to end
I wish we weren't apart
I just wanna call you a friend

You were so fucking mean
At least that's what I've kept
But I don't know what it means
Staying still and intact

And with my heart into pieces
I tried to make you feel the same
The feeling was so vicious
That it became our little game

So I guess I put myself away
From the guilt I could've felt

I don't know how to start
Or even how to end
I wish we weren't apart
I just wanna call you a friend

I'm searching for a spark
To finish the contempt
While resting in the dark
This is my last attempt

And my stomach hurts every time I say your name
My eyes start to cry thinking it was all in vain

I don't know how to start
Or even how to end
I wish we weren't apart
I just wanna call you a friend