I'm Not Ready

One more distraction to keep me from
Laying in the wake of my own destruction
And I want you to believe that I'm better, but I'm not
So it's one more temporary love illusion

I don't wanna get in too deep
Making these promises I won't keep
Just hold myself down steady and hope I can sleep
When I dive into another bed
I'm so empty inside, filling up on regret
If I'm honest with myself, I'm still terrified at best
I tried, I'll admit, I'm not ready, I'm not ready

Saw my reflection in someone
Couldn't see you coming but I lost two hours
And I wanted to believe I was better off back then
But there's a crack in the mirror and it left me broken

I don't wanna get in too deep
Making these promises I won't keep
Just hold myself down steady and hope I can sleep
When I dive into another bed
I'm so empty inside, filling up on regret
If I'm honest with myself, I'm still terrified at best
I tried, I'll admit, I'm not ready, I'm not ready
I'm not ready, I'm not ready, I'm not ready
I'm not ready, I'm not ready

I don't wanna get in too deep
Making these promises I won't keep
Just hold myself down steady and hope I can sleep

When I dive into another bed
I'm so empty inside, filling up on regret
If I'm honest with myself, I'm still terrified at best
I tried, I'll admit, I'm not ready, I'm not ready
I'm not ready, I'm not ready, I'm not ready
I'm not ready, oh, I'm not ready