Party Favor

Holding my head in my hands I'm unwilling to breathe
I do not know who I am, give me someone to be
God why are you still the reason I can't fall asleep
Don't you know I'm hanging on by the skin of my teeth

Oh
I know you kissed me just to shut me up
I know I always get a little too drunk
I guess it's just a matter of time before it shows up
It's all in my head till it's not, then it's over
I know I'm wild and I talk too loud
Too many words coming out of my mouth
I guess I should've known you weren't a long game player
I could only keep you as a party favor

My friends say I should be upset
But I can't feel a thing
I guess I just haven't slept
I'm forgetting to eat
I'm losing weight as I'm losing my mind every week
But honey I know that you were not playing for keeps

Oh
I know you kissed me just to shut me up
I know I always get a little too drunk
I guess it's just a matter of time before it shows up
It's all in my head till it's not, then it's over
I know I'm wild and I talk too loud
Too many words are coming out of my mouth
I guess I should've known you weren't a long game player
I could only keep you as a party favor

Oh I think the starvation is catching up to me
I can't feel my body
My clothes fall right off me
I think this illusion is holding onto me
Is this what you wanted
Am I finally pretty

I think the starvation is catching up to me
I see you in passing
You never look at me
It all feels so pointless
I shouldn't have done this
Is this what you wanted
Is this what you wanted
You're just being honest

Oh
I know you kissed me just to shut me up
I know I always get a little too drunk
I guess it's just a matter of time before it shows up
It's all in my head till it's not, then it's over
I know I'm wild and I talk too loud
Too many words coming out of my mouth
I guess I should've known you weren't a long game player
I could only keep you as a party favor
Oh I could only keep you as a party favor
Yeah I could only keep you as a party favor