Fuel I Prayed For

They left me bleeding in a room full of smiles
Knives in their hands, fake love in their eyes
I swallowed shame, I slept with doubt
Built my spine when they counted me out

Cold nights, no one home
Learned how to stand alone
Every scar became my spark
I lit a fire in the dark

I walked through hell, jaw locked tight
Every voice said end this fight
But something in me screamed stay
I wasn't born to fade away

I won't die, I will survive
I refuse to break, I refuse to hide
I won't fold, I won't submit
I refuse to be weak and sink in it

Thank you God for the fuel I lacked
You lit the flame they tried to crack
From the bottom, through the scars
I'm rising alone, but I'm going far

Left for dead, but I crawled back mean
Pain in my hands, faith in my teeth
Betrayal turned to gasoline
I didn't pray for peace, I prayed for strength

I won't die, I will survive
This fire in me is still alive
Thank you God for the fuel I lacked
I rose from nothing, and I'm not going back

Now the noise fades, I can finally breathe
Still standing here with what's left of me
No crowns yet, but my soul is scarred gold
I walked alone and I made it home