Donut Hole

Memory’s a mess, I can’t really see
Since when I can’t remember properly
Only one thing is clear to me
It’s that I can’t recall for the life of me

Tried to think again, again
And only that face popped into my head
Still you were just a distant blur
And nothing else in my empty mind seemed to stir

Railways loop round and round the globe
Trying to chase down every bit of morning glow
But we don’t need tracks to lead the way
Pursuing nights instead of the day

Tried to think for the millionth time and
Yet only that face popped into my head
Gentle raindrops on my eyes
And a dark voice dead and cold inside

If I had kept it at bay, had the dark truth stayed away
Maybe I wouldn’t hurt you like I do now
Anyway, if I told you that I can’t sleep despite all I’ve tried
Maybe you’d laugh your head off, laugh until you finally cry

I counted these emotions Inside my mind
And then I realized that I forgot the warmth when your hand touched mine
Bye bye, I’m afraid we won’t meet anymore
Don’t even know I’d care so much
You’re just gonna make my heart sore
No I can’t function anymore
But I can’t shut the damn door

Like a hole, a donut hole
You can’t separate a hole from the whole
So I can’t distill you from my soul
I can’t tell if you’re real and it’s getting old

Tried to think again, again
And only that face popped into my head
Once again I slip myself
Between the sheets, waiting for help
Would we really be fine, if memories don’t really die?
Won’t we be haunted by them bothering us every night?
Will you please don’t remind me of those days gone
By I swear there must be a reason why I said goodbye

I counted these emotions
Lost inside my mind
And then I realized that I forgot how your voice sounded with mine
Bye bye, I’m afraid we won’t meet anymore
Don’t even know I’d care so much
You’re just gonna make my heart sore
Drip drip drop, my tears wet the floor
Still, I can’t shut the damn door

This empty hole that you bore
Inside my heart
It’s the only thing that tells me you were there till I fell apart
I fell apart and now I’m still broken and sad
How is it possible to hurt so bad
It’s really driving me mad

I counted these emotions Inside my mind
And then I realized that I forgot the warmth when your hand touched mine
Bye bye, I’m afraid we won’t meet anymore
But then a small word came to mind
As I floated in endless time
Afraid that it would slip away, I slowly opened my eyes
I opened my eyes
I opened my eyes
Your name was what I cried