The Last Deception

Walking away in disgust
Wiping the dust from my eyes
I went down that road again
Content in retreat I look to begin

Until again maybe I will find
The illusive structures of fulfillment
I seek not which other hope to obtain
Artificial release to move on and on

This saga of lies
This pain which I endure
It is time to converge
Time to procure
Break this curse, this is the last deception
Rebuke the bitch let there be no question

As my heart is dissected
I refuse to reflect hatred
Maybe you will glimpse a reflection
Of your complete lack of dignity

Never must this continue in vain
Enough tragedies abound if had worth could build palaces
Total oblivion surrounds me engulfing my shadow

Sickened beyond thought I withdraw before the battle
It is never regretful to learn all these lessons
Rendered obscene thoughts foreign to my brain
Keep greatness reserved for those who deserve

Yet still I wander towards my dismay
The end of my suffering never in sight
Motives lead astray turned into hate
Desensitized by misery and unending pain

Twists and the turns on the road of desolation
Pulled under the tides of the malignant seas
Cursed forever never return to my home again
Just like the lost tales of ancient men
Conflicting between expression and what was concurred
Expecting the well deserved becomes oddly absurd

Sinking downwards into the dark
Losing sight of what was once lost
Consciousness fades thoughts expire
Regretfully returning to the realm of all the lies surmounted
Bringing forth nocturnal visions
Faces of the past arisen
Tormenting me without reason
All that I can see is, more of all the fucking same shit

A thousand slow and painful deaths, each more sadistically excruciating
And deceptively final
Such is the flowing misery beneath the veneer of a woman's love
Heartless creatures that they be