Guilttripping

So many stars in the sky and I don't know why
They always have to fall on me
Maybe I'm blind to all of the signs
That the world never wanted me

I went outside today
Hoping the sun would burn my face
I went outside today
Hoping I'd feel something

My body's weak
It gave up on me
This time I don't think I will get out from
What I'm underneath
It's hard to believe
Another day of rain has come and gone

Don't go, she said
I wouldn't mind but I'm cold inside
I've felt this bad for so long
I'm scared I'm fine

I went outside today
Hoping the sun would burn my face
I went outside today
Hoping I'd feel something

Save room for me in memories
I'd love to always be a small part of
What makes you smile
From time to time
Just think of me and be glad I'm home

Let's close our eyes
We've got time to make each other cry
It's best this way
I'm used to being left behind

I remember a time when I felt so unlike me
I remember a time when someone could love me
I remember when I still felt alive

Don't go, she said
I wouldn't mind but I'm cold inside
I've felt so bad for so long
I'm scared I'm fine

So many stars in the sky and I don't know why
They always have to fall on me
Maybe I'm blind to all of the signs
That the world never wanted me

I went outside today
Hoping the sun would burn my face
I went outside today
Hoping I'd feel something