Lamentations

Saddening
I imagined the whole ordeal
I imagined the noises
And the pain that I feel
The landscape was far from
What I expected
But my eyes are still black and my
Skin blood red.

I did kill myself
Numerous times
And still I am dying
A death of my own design
But this time i am surrounded
By eyes full of tears
Weeping for the pain I've given
Many throughout the years.

This is my new hell
My heartless deeds paid off.

I've lost appreciation for love
There is no God who could change that now
I've been gone for years and I'm not coming back.

No longer can I offer you
The very thing that you want the most
I want to watch you cry as I walk away.

'Cause the old heart
That once stayed inside,
The one that loved you
Has long since died.

I no longer remember
The passions of the world
I've spent a lifetime chasing
Toward a heart-shaped void.

Now in darkness I rest myself
Away from human efforts
Beneath a mask of contentedness
Where I know that I am real.