Shippaisaku Shoujo

Failed Girl

Shippaisaku Shoujo

Ah, look, I messed up again, how many times? What number is this?
ああ ほらまた間違えた これで何度？何回目
aa hora mata machigaeta kore de nando? nankai me
Hey, look, I'm standing here blocked, with scars that just won’t fade away.
ねえ ほらふさいで立って ぽっかり浮き出る傷跡
nee hora fusaide tatte pokkari ukideru kizuato
Ah, look, I just played it off again, you’re so good at pretending not to see.
ああ ほらまたごまかした 見て見ぬ振りお上手ね
aa hora mata gomakashita mite minu furi ojouzu ne
No matter what they say, look, nobody wants me anyway.
もう ほら何言われたって 誰も私を望まない
mou hora nani iwaretatte dare mo watashi wo nozomanai

I want to be exposed, it hurts.
むき出していたい いたい
mukidashite itai itai
I want to act tough, it hurts.
強がっていたい いたい
tsuyogatte itai itai
I want to breathe my last, it really hurts.
息絶えていたい いたいんだよ
ikizumatte itai itain dayo

They say I’m a failure, I don’t need this shit, it’s too much to handle.
私って失敗作だって 捨てていらない困難だって
watashitte shippai saku datte satte iranai konan datte
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it feels like a joke.
何やったって頑張ったって騙らしいや
nani yattatte ganbattatte damerashii ya
Love, love, I just want to be loved, so I fake it,
愛 愛 愛されたくて 偽って
ai ai aisare takute itsuwatte
Maybe if I smile more, it’ll be alright.
もっと もっと笑顔でいればいいかな
motto motto egao de ireba ii kana

Ah, look, I scraped myself again, how many times? What number is this?
ああ ほらまたすりむいた これで何度？何回目
aa hora mata surimuita kore de nando? nankai me?
Hey, look, even if I hide it, the cracks show my trauma.
ねえ ほら隠してたって 地割れ浮き出るトラウマ
nee hora kakushitetatte jiwari ukideru torauma
Ah, look, I swallowed it again, you’re so good at putting on that calm face.
ああ ほらまた飲み込んだ 済まし顔がお上手ね
aa hora mata nomikonda sumashi gao ga ojouzu ne
No matter what they say, look, I’m mocked and covered in bruises.
もう ほら何言われたってあざけられあざだらけ
mou hora nani iwaretatte azakerare aza darake

Swaying in this suffocating feeling,
閉塞感にゆらゆら
heisokukan ni yurayura
Dizzy from this sense of isolation,
裂島感にくらくら
rettoukan ni kurakura
I’m gasping for air, feeling so dry.
息絶えてからからなの
ikizumatte karakara nano

They say I’m a failure, I don’t need this shit, it’s pointless.
私って失敗作だってなっていらない困難だって
watashi tte shippai saku datte natte iranai konan datte
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it feels like a waste.
何やったって頑張ったって無駄みたいだ
nani yattatte ganbattatte muda mitai da
I just want to know the meaning of being born,
生まれてきた意味が欲しくて
umarete kita imi ga hoshikute
Maybe if I smile more naturally, it’ll be alright.
もっと もっと自然に笑えばいいかな
motto motto shizen ni waraeba ii kana

God, if I could be reborn,
神様 もしも生まれ変わることができたら
kami-sama moshimo umarekawaru koto ga dekitara
I hope I can be a child who is loved.
愛される子になれますように
aisareru ko ni nare masu youni
Let the heartbeat that has stopped be a lullaby,
泣きやんだ鼓動を子守唄に
naki yanda kodou wo komoriuta ni
Surely, surely tomorrow I can smile, right?
きっと きっと明日は笑えるよね
kitto kitto ashita wa waraeru yo ne

Goodnight to all these mistakes.
間違いだらけにおやすみなさい
machigai darake ni oyasuminasai