Holy Rust

I held your mercy in my mouth
It tasted cheap, it wore me out
You said my pain would make me pure
But I just rot a little more

You paint my shame in silver lines
Sell my scars as holy signs
Every promise burns to dust
Every kiss corrodes to rust

You said: Grace is pain in disguise
But I see fire behind your eyes

Holy rust, it stains my skin
Every prayer just pulls me in
You call it love, I call it sin
Holy rust, I can't begin

Holy rust, I bite the chain
Bleed forgiveness through my veins
You want devotion, here's my trust
Holy rust, holy rust

You built a God from my decay
Fed me truth I couldn't say
Nailed my heart to your regret
Now you pray, and I forget

You said I'd shine if I just obey
Now I'm the saint that ran away
You kneel in gold, I choke in gray
Your heaven doesn't want my pain

You said pain was the way to heal
I said silence was how I'd feel

Holy rust, tear me down
Crown me queen of broken sound
Every wound's a sacred trust
Holy rust, in me, in us

Your mercy's made of metal, and I'm still bleeding