Never Ever

My decision, still make me a liar
My reasons still make me (rhymes with tire)
Better never for now and ever,
An extreme to hold, but we all grow is old
Nothing more to leave behind, not a stone unturned
Was nothing ever learned?
Is there no solution?
Is there no consolation?
All I can say is never ever again.
But no, I cannot pretend.
I can say it again and again and again.
It never ever goes away.
Not even in the time that's passing by.
Not even in time.