Not Even Myself

I can't picture my own face with a smile
And it's been like this for a while
When the time comes to make a choice
I can not hear the options

It's hard to hear them over the sound of your own voice
So cross my heart
And slit my wrists

I don't think that love exists
And I can't trust no one
Not even myself
So black my eyes
Tell me lies

Couldn't believe them if I tried
I can't trust nobody
Not even my own body

Not a day goes by where I don't miss you
I just hate myself, I'd never diss you
And I don't think I can take you back
No, I would not dare risk that

'Cause losing you is just like losing part of myself
When the time comes to make a choice
I can not hear the options

It's hard to hear them over the sound of your own voice
So cross my heart
And slit my wrists
I don't think that love exists
And I can't trust no one

Not even myself
So black my eyes
Tell me lies
Couldn't believe them if I tried
I can't trust nobody
Not even my own body