I'm Homesick

On my own
Back to square one
It should feel like home
But tonight I'm not cozy at all

It feels more like failing
And it feels like I'm choking
It's more like dreaming of ending this right now

I'm homesick
But there's not a place I can call home
At least it used to be where my family used to live
Still homesick
But there's no family anymore
Anymore

It seems for so long
That I've been on denial
And no, I don't
Want you to hold on to this grudge
So thorough with my skill to fake smiles
And I don't know how to feel around you