Sweet Misery

I've got dirt under my nails from trying to claw myself out
Of this self pity induced holeI that I rolled down
But don't lend a hand you'll end up where I am now
Think I kinda like life when it's dark and ruin bound

Anger's got a grip that I can't fight
I'm a stone cold liar if I say I've tried
Cause this cloud's been raining on me so damn long
But that's relief to a man who calls a desert, home

Good times left me in the cold
I found peace where nothing grows
Harvested the hurt cause the joy didn't
Feed me enough as sweet misery

Don't take me out to the light
Can't lose a spark if you never shine
Sick off the highs that almost killed me
I need sweet misery

Drinking up the feelings most people try to hide
It's a strange way of living when sinking is keeping me alive

I don't wanna leave what's dragging my happiness down
Cause what am I then when everything I've known is washed out?

I'm still gripping the shovel that got me here
Fear if I let go I might disappear
Cause we're only worth the weight of things we hold
And all that I carry is a bag of bones

Good times left me in the cold
I found peace where nothing grows
Harvested the hurt cause the joy didn't
Feed me enough as sweet misery

Don't take me out to the light
Can't lose a spark if you never shine
Sick off the highs that almost killed me
I need sweet misery

I don't care there's pieces left to mend
Cause if I stay broke I can't be broken again
I don't care there's pieces left to mend
Cause if I stay broke I can't be broken again
I don't care there's pieces left to mend
Cause if I stay broke I can't be broken again