ハルノ寂寞 (Haru no Sekibaku)

Spring Loneliness

ハルノ寂寞 (Haru no Sekibaku)

Got hurt many times
何回も傷ついて
nankai mo kizutsuite
There was a big hole
ポッカリ穴が空いていたので
pokkari ana ga aite ita no de
I was pulling through with a needle
針を通して引きつっていたんだよ
hari o tooshite hikitsutte itan da yo

Protected for many days
何日も守り抜いて
nannichi mo mamorinuite
Heavy, closed my mouth
重たくたって口を閉じて
omotakutatte kuchi o tojite
Tried to hold it until it tore
破けるくらいに抱えてみたんだよ
yabukeru kurai ni kakaete mitan da yo

Got hurt many times
何回も傷ついて
nankai mo kizutsuite
Covered the open hole, hid it
開いた穴を塞いで隠して
aita ana o nutte kakushite
Wanted to stay together as long as possible
なるべく長く一緒にいたいんだよ
narubeku nagaku issho ni itain da yo

Protected for many days
何日も守り抜いて
nannichi mo mamorinuite
Even though I wanted to spit, just gritted my teeth
吐きたくたって歯を食いしばっただけ
hakitakuta tte ha o kuishibatta dake
I was being held
抱えてもらっていたんだよ
kakaete moratte itanda yo

Forcing my mouth shut doesn't hurt
無理やり口を閉じたって苦しくないわ
muriyariguchi o tojita tte kurushikunai wa

The tired me was no good
くたびれた私がダメだったんだね
kutabireta atashi ga dame dattan da ne
I thought I could still be useful
まだ役に立つつもりだったけれど
mada yakunitatsu tsumori datta keredo
Before tearing apart, let's say goodbye, passing each other with kindness
ちぎれる前に思いやりすれ違って君とさようなら
chigireru mae ni omoiyari surechigatte kimi to sayounara

The tired me was no good
くたびれた私がダメだったんだね
kutabireta atashi ga dame dattan da ne
Your scent still lingers
まだ君の匂いも残っているよ
mada kimi no nioi mo nokotte iru yo
Before tearing apart, just a little bit left, painfully saying goodbye
ちぎれる前に少しだけ残り押し痛そうにさようなら
chigireru mae ni sukoshi dake nagorioshisou ni sayounara

The face and body that have been hurt many times are still usable
何回も傷ついてきた顔も体もまだ使えるよ
nankai mo kizutsuite kita kao mo karada mo mada tsukaeru yo
Don't throw them away, just don't hand them over to anyone
捨てないで誰かに譲らないでほしいだけなの
sutenaide dareka ni yuzuranaide hoshii dake na no

The tired me was no good
くたびれた私がダメだった
kutabireta atashi ga dame datta

The tired me was no good
くたびれた私がダメだったんだね
kutabireta atashi ga dame dattan da ne
I thought I was being relied on
頼られていると思い込んでいるよ
tayorarete iru to omoikonde iru yo
Won't lean towards the brand new me before tearing apart
ちぎれる前の新品見しようの私に傾けやしない
chigireru mae no shinpin mishiyou no atashi ni kateyashinai

The tired me was no good
くたびれた私がダメだったんだね
kutabireta atashi ga dame dattan da ne
Just remembering the faded colors
色褪せただけ思い出していけるよ
iroaseta dake omoidashite ikeru yo
After tearing apart, just a little bit left, painfully saying goodbye
ちぎれた後に少しだけ残り押し痛そうにさようなら
chigireta ato ni sukoshi dake nagorioshisou ni sayounara