Crawling Forward, Running Backwards

Sometimes i fail to see you or to hear your voice,
How have i fallen so far this time?
Searching the seams for a tear, looking for my way,
This land has never been so dry.
Evil, evil, wretched me!
Who will save me from this body of my death?
I've come so far, it's been so long since i've found you've touched my life.
How could i have fallen so far, fallen so long...
Oh, save me! oh god, save me!
I am drowning in my pain.
Oh god, save me!
(only the pain of) being without you has invaded my soul and held me captive.
Where have you been so long, and how long till i'm free?
I cry out for you, do you hear me?
-have i ever left you? have i ever held you back from anything other than your own destruction?
I will rescue you, i will set you free.
Where have i been so long? just turn around and see!-
(dunno about this part)
Oh god, i'll never leave you. oh god, i'll stand right by your side.
I will never stray from you.
-yes you will, that's why i'm here.-