will i always feel this way?

I'm crying in my car
For the fourth time today
Told my friends things were better
But that was yesterday
Cause now the weather's got me down
I'm tryna think of a way to explain
Where I've been
And why my laugh doesn't sound the same

Oh, will I always feel this way?
Will I always feel this way?
Walk through the doors and I'm good
Wear a smile like I should
Wipe the tears from my face
Tell everybody things are so great
But will I always feel this way?

There's nothing left to do
But talk to myself in the backseat
About how I think I'm going crazy
And there won't be anyone to save me
When I've had enough of the view
Grown bored of the city behind me
Can't run from the person I'm becoming
Or the guilt that's consuming

And I've tried everything
Quit my job
And spent all my money
Cut my hair three times last week
Couldn't make myself happy

Oh, will I always feel this way?
Will I always feel this way?
Walk through the doors and I'm good
Wear a smile like I should
Wipe the tears from my face
Tell everybody things are so great
But will I always feel this way?

Too caught up in my head to stop now
I'm in the back seat of my car passed out
Are these the moments coming of age movies talk about?
Cause it's not pretty to watch the world you built crash down

Oh, will I always feel this way?
Will I always feel this way?
Walk through the doors and I'm good
Wear a smile like I should
Wipe the tears from my face
Tell everybody things are so great
But will I always feel this way?