What If It's Not

When did the nights get heavy?
When did the music stop?
All of my brightest memories
You'd add up all of them

I didn't want you with me
But I don't want you gone
Looking at my history
There's a lot I was running from
There's a lot I was running from

And what if it's the best I'll ever have?
What if it's not?
And what if it's the best I'll ever have?
I already messed it up

I'm so bitter, I'm so bruised
I won't quit but I want to
What if it's the best I'll ever have?
What if it's not?
Tell me it's not

When did I get so tired?
What am I tired of?
Why didn't I say I'm sorry?
And I knew that I was wrong

Time's not waiting for me
And I wish that it was
I was racing through our story
I don't know what I was running from

And what if it's the best I'll ever have?
What if it's not?
And what if it's the best I'll ever have?
And I went and messed it up

I'm so bitter, I'm so bruised
I won't quit but I want to
What if it's the best I'll ever have?

What if it's not?
Tell me it's not
Tell me it's not

But what if it's the best I'll ever have?
What if it's not?
And what if it's the best I'll ever have?
I already messed it up

I'm so bitter, I'm so bruised
I won't quit but I want to
And what if it's the best I'll ever have?
What if it's not?

And what if it's the best I'll ever have?
What if it's not?
And what if it's the best I'll ever have?
And I went and messed it up

I'm so bitter, I'm so bruised
I won't quit but I want to
What if it's the best I'll ever have?
What if it's not?

Tell me it's not
Tell me it's not, tell me it's not