Surely

How can I decide? When it's too hard to choose the better way, fighting everyday against my so called problems, against my so called troubles.
This usual apathy is slowly killing me...spending days or wasting days... there's no big difference between live my life this way or just survive...more pain it's not enough...because sitting in the dark is nothing but the beginning of sorrow. I'm not so strong.
So many roads that I can follow over there. There's not always a second chance and so I'm just afraid to move my steps.
How can I decide? Two choices again. I cannot control the future and I cannot ignore the past. I cannot control the past. Same old story.