Pleasure Isn't Simple

the boys swore despite chaperones i danced cheek to cheek
sneak out intermission, drink gin or corn liquor with coke
neck my breast pressed heavy against her chest
harry was an ice cream __
with the boys who muttered in small clusters to __ or tap dance
we'd meet then go swimming
i'd sit under my sun umbrella
climb the high dive, show off some new steps or imitate those i'd seen
i gave a damned good show
we'd __ long after
let the surface bend our second [elbows?]
i have the judge's reputation to protect me
he was never a __ only ____
my mother was 40 when i was born
she [missed me 'til i was 40?]