Matter

My skin was steel, you made it rust
And I just can't drink this off
Hoping that it gets me through today
Carved into my skin, I'm just a fragile little kid
I've been branded by this
My self-portrait lacks innocence

You keep saying that I matter
But it doesn't make me feel anything
Just stop saying that there's next year
'Cause I don't think I'll make it past today

I was holding my own
But then your fingers traced the cracks in my bones
You said, just open up, kid
Then you can make yourself whole again

You keep saying that I matter
But it doesn't make me feel anything
Just stop saying that there's next year
'Cause I don't think I'll make it past today

It should have been me
Laid out on the concrete
I have to leave this body
Please, just remember me

You keep saying that I matter
But it doesn't make me feel anything
(I'm sorry I was born this way)
Just stop saying that there's next year
'Cause I don't think I'll make it past today
(You won't remember me)

My skin was steel, but now its rust
I'm giving in, I'm fucking crushed
You just couldn't even care at all
But maybe I'll get over this
And maybe I'll grow up from it
But all I keep thinking is it should have been me
It should've been me