A House Without Doors

One more lap around my room
Yeah, that's the microcosm where I rot
Gregor samsa, deformed and lost
A metamorphosis at what cost?

Maybe I'm just a bug in the code
A simulation wrong, a broken node
Strange thing, no fix, no reset
An outcast made of human regret

In my restless dreams, I see these walls
I swore I'd leave yeah, I said it all
But I never did
And now I fall
I'm alone I've become so small

I live in a house without doors
No way out, no open floor
I can't escape myself, I'm blind
I'm trapped inside my mind

I'm trapped inside my mind

They say fire turns steel to blade
And temptation builds moral weight
But fuck that
I just wanna breathe art
Fall in love, feel whole, take part

Not fight for crumbs, or break my hands
Climbing hills and crushing plans
I'm like a ghost stuck in the mist
A shadow screaming: Do I exist?

If I die here
Do I haunt these halls?
Or does my soul break through the walls?
This smile I wear, it's camouflage

Hiding pain like sabotage
You'll never know what I've concealed
The cost I carry stays sealed

In my restless dreams, I see these walls
I swore I'd leave
Yeah, I said it all
But I never did
And now I fall
I'm alone
I've become so small

I live in a house without doors
No way to get outside
I can't escape myself
I've tried
I'm trapped inside my mind
I'm trapped inside my mind

This prison cell was built by me
Locked myself in and lost the key
It's not just loneliness
It's worse
A creeping curse, day by day
It hurts

It strangles, it poisons, it mocks the light
It crushes hope with all its might
But still I search
Some way to break

Some crack in the wall, some path to take
To leave this shell, to feel alive
Forget these walls
Begin to thrive

I live in a house without doors
Where silence screams and my voice is torn
I can't escape myself
I try
But I'm still trapped inside my mind
I'm still trapped inside my mind
I'm still trapped inside my mind

Darkness falls inside this cage
And if not even God can save me
Then I'll deal with this demon called life
And carve my meaning out with a knife

What's left to say becomes how I live
I lay the ground
I warn, I give
Love is the absurd that costs to keep
It's the poison I drink so I don't fall too deep
So I don't fall too deep

This house is full of unfulfilled things
Lust, dreams, and songs with broken wings
Emotions that never saw the day
That stayed locked up, just rotting away

I live in a house without doors
No way out
No peace, no cures
I can't escape myself
I try
But I'm still trapped inside

Inside my mind
Inside my mind
Inside my mind