Self Pity

Every time I wake up I am scared to think
How do I feel today, am I fine today
It usually gets worse after an hour or so
Then I have to go, I really have to go

I hope you'll never get to feel the pain
The pain that you've gotten me go through
I hope you will be spared the grief I feel
And live on without this torture

Walking down the street there's too much happiness
Though I know they lie, in their hearts they cry
I'm tying hard to think about their misery
Then I feel ok and I'd like to say

I hope you all will get to feel the pain
The pain that you've gotten me go through
I hope you won't be spared the grief I feel
And live on in this torture

I have to loose these silly thoughts
Not just think about myself
Not to mirror my despair
On these innocent poor souls
It's no use it's just a flight
From the truth and from my life
It's the easy way to go
In this self pity I'll drown

I hope I'll never get to feel the pain
The pain that I've gotten you go through
I hope I will be spared the grief you feel
Though I realise I don't deserve it