Medicine

I don’t wanna fall in love
And fall apart again
I don't know if I’m ok enough so I keep taking medicine
To give my head a rest
But what did I expect

I said I’d give him everything but everything meant nothing
But I still stayed so I could feel I’m holding on to something
And I feel like a burnout
Lie and say that I’m better on my own now

Ok alright
I’m starting to feel nothing when I lay awake at night
Ok alright
I’ll fool myself with every other lie

I still think of every word you said to me
Trying to ease the memory by drowning it in nicotine
I swear to fucking God that one day you’ll be dead to me
But right now just to hear your voice I swear that I’d do anything

I don’t wanna fall in love
And fall apart again
I don't know if I’m ok enough so I keep taking medicine
To give my head a rest
But what did I expect