healing (feat. gnash)

I'm overdone and under pressure
Am I ever getting better?
And I'm sorry if I let you down
God, I wish that I was younger
Jealous of my little brother
Wish I knew then what I don't know now

The second that I open up, I close
The door into my room and let it go

If it's only me and the me in the mirror
Do I hug? Do I love? Do I fear her?
Am I enough? I don't know
I'm healing
And I'm doing my best, am I good at
All the things that I say that I should have?
Let me guess, I don't know
I'm healing

When the fire burns the feelings I don't show
The only thing that's left to lose is hope (yeah)
I'm healing
I'm healing

I thought I left all this hurt and pain in the past
I try my best, but I'm walking on broken glass
And I'm sorry if I let you down
But you know I didn't mean to
I knew this movie was coming, I've seen the previews
I mix the sugar and medicine on my teaspoon
Emotional rollercoaster, jump up and down in my bed
Regretting every breath, every word that I never said

The second that I open up, I close
The door into my room and let it go

If it's only me and the me in the mirror
Do I hug? Do I love? Do I fear her?
Am I enough? I don't know
I'm healing
And I'm doing my best, am I good at
All the things that I say that I should have?
Let me guess, I don't know
I'm healing

When the fire burns the feelings I don't show
The only thing that's left to lose is hope
I'm healing
I'm healing
(The second that I open up, I close) I'm healing
(The door into my room and let it go) I'm healing