Toffee

A planned reverse
It's all rehearsed
Yet I forget my lines
This doubt fills me up
'Cause I feel like I'm a stranger when I'm

Happy, sad
I'm arguing more than I've ever known
You say you love her, I kind of hate her
And yet I don't, maybe I don't

Like toffee, thought that you'd be sweet
But how you linger, stuck in my teeth
Sugar-coated words, swallow them whole
And smile, it's not that hard

I mourn the walls
But hate to fall
And yes, I confess that I ran again last night
Back to what I know, it felt so good until it hurt, it hurts to let it go

Euphoric, vexed
I'm so impressed by these tears that are mine
Overwhelming
God, I've never felt so alive
Who am I?

Like toffee, thought that you'd be sweet
But how you linger, stuck in my teeth
Sugar-coated words, swallow them whole
And smile, it's not that hard