Be Mean, It's Kinder Than Crying

It seems I've done a terrible thing
I've loosened the strings
That kept us together

It is fine of course you are meant to be mad
I expected that
When I started lying

I could have shown you
All the parts where I am broken
All the paths I have not chosen
That left me here

I know I've done a terrible thing
I've lived in my sins
And begged for forgiveness

It is fine of course you don't have to give in
Be angry, be mean
It's kinder than crying

It felt so lovely
To be beautiful in secret
Where nobody else could see it
I know you did

Sorry baby I am
I was not in my head
Sorry baby I am
I am not who I was back then