More Than One Heartbeat

You turned your face
And called it fate
Left me counting ceiling cracks
At 2am
Chewed-up letters
Under my bed
Every word a little cut
That never bled

I used to beg the empty sky
For just one answer
Just one sign
But silence held me in its hands
And I learned how to stand

I won't drown for a heart that never beat for me
There is more than one heartbeat in this body
I found love in the burn
In the breaking day
In the roar of the world that never walks away
I won't kneel to a ghost that never knew my name
My life's the only flame that stays

Coffee steam
On winter glass
Stray dog sleeping
By my feet
Mom calls laughing
Through the static
Tiny halos
In the heat

All the little
Living things
Stitched my torn-out edges in
I stopped chasing what you hid
And loved the life I'm in

I loved you like
You were the Sun
Till I burned and
Came undone

But there's fire
In my friends' loud rooms
In late-night drives
In flowers on tombs

In busted knuckles
In midnight runs
In every breath
My tired lungs
Still drag like metal
Through the storm
That hurt was ash
But I was born