Silent Violence

Dead, gone, can't get out of bed
Sleep better with a lead round rolling through my head
I'm begging you please, help end this disease
Somebody tell me what is wrong with me

I'm constantly losing this game that I play
Called numbing the pain, please take me away
The choices I make and the things that I say
Contradicting my feelings and leaving me gray

It resonates within my being
Propagating all of these vicious feelings
It altercates with all I create
Animating a darkness that only berates

All I am is dead, gone, can't get out of bed
Sleep better with a lead round rolling through my head
I'm begging you please, help end this disease
Somebody tell me what is wrong with me

(I'm losing, I'm losing)

There's a thousand and one ways
To snuff out my constant endless suffering
Yet I'm still standing through all that's demanding
That's gotta count for something

I've lost it all

I'm trapped, caramelized
From the heat, I'm baptized
Bathed in hate, traumatized
Suicide, it's my demise, is it?

All I am is dead, gone, can't get out of bed
Sleep better with a lead round rolling through my head
I'm begging you please, help end this disease
Somebody tell me what is wrong with me
I'm dead, gone, can't get out of bed
Sleep better with a lead round rolling through my head
I suffer in silence through all of this violence
Will somebody tell me what is wrong with me?

Silence the violence that hides all the vibrance
And makes this stiffness appear in my chest
Rapidly breathing through all the deceiving
Grinding my teeth just to block out the rest

Cut, tear, cauterize
In despair I'm magnetized
Bite, claw, eviscerate
Find how to mitigate
But there's scars all over my chest
Look what the brain has done to the wrist
Remind me to find what's left
Hide them all bury the rest

Cut, tear, cauterize
In despair I'm magnetized
Bite, claw, eviscerate
Try my best to mitigate but I'm gone