It Wasn't Love

No Era Amor

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How could I call you love?Cómo pude llamarte amor

It wasn't loveNo era amor
It was the fear of sleeping aloneEra el miedo a dormir solo
It was your body nearbyEra tu cuerpo cerca
When I felt brokenCuando me sentía roto

It wasn't youNo eras tú
It was the fucking voidEra el puto vacío
It was about fucking to avoid thinkingEra follar pa' no pensar
In everything I lost with myselfEn todo lo que perdí conmigo

I sold myself the lieMe vendí la mentira
I bought your versionMe tragué tu versión
I confused desireConfundí deseo
With something I am notCon algo que no soy

It wasn't loveNo era amor
It was habit and sweatEra costumbre y sudor
It was about taking off our clothesEra quitarnos la ropa
And call it connectionY llamarlo conexión

It wasn't loveNo era amor
It was fucking for no reasonEra follar sin razón
Two empty bodiesDos cuerpos vacíos
Playing at feeling a little betterJugando a sentir algo mejor

It wasn't loveNo era amor
No wayNo jodas
NoNo

You said: StayDecías: Quédate
When it suited youCuando te convenía
I kept saying: MaybeYo decía: Tal vez
While it consumed meMientras me consumía

We get along wellNos usamos bien
As experts at failingComo expertos en fallar
You were looking for controlTú buscabas control
I don't feel anything anymoreYo no sentir nada más

And now look at me hereY ahora mírame aquí
Without faith or directionSin fe ni dirección
Calling loveLlamando amor
Pure self-destructionA pura autodestrucción

It wasn't loveNo era amor
It was routine and alcoholEra rutina y alcohol
It was touching your skinEra tocarte la piel
So I don't have to face who I amPa' no enfrentar quién soy

It wasn't loveNo era amor
It was sex and controlEra sexo y control
Two expert liarsDos mentirosos expertos
Shouting love at the mistakeGritándole amor al error

It wasn't loveNo era amor
And I wish I had understood it soonerY ojalá lo hubiera entendido antes