It Was Torture

Dawning in any bed
Living for the grace of hurting someone
Giving fake smiles, pretending to be fine
Dark circles under my eyes every time I sleep with someone

Wandering through London feeling the air
Pretending I'm someone happy
When I see another door I get goosebumps
Because I know that if I don't get in I'll be losing adrenaline

My heart made of polyester
My dreams shaped by people
My inflamed scars

I never told you to go
I just needed to breathe, I needed to pretend some more
I lie like a mintomaniac
'Cause I feel like a butterfly that hasn't flown
I knew that was our last kiss
It was torture, it was torture, it was like losing all your senses
It was torture, it was torture, it was like seeing the wounds coming back

The night I decided to stay in one bed
It was cold, dark, harrowing, incredibly painful
In November it was the stop
I was left with the worst memories

I can't change what I said, but I know I hurt you
But burn all our best things
It won't make me happy
And it hurts, burns and suffocates

My heart made of polyester
My dreams shaped by people
My inflamed scars

I never told you to go
I just needed to breathe, I needed to pretend some more
I lie like a mintomaniac
'Cause I feel like a butterfly that hasn't flown
I knew that was our last kiss
It was torture, it was torture, it was like losing all your senses
It was torture, it was torture, it was like seeing the wounds coming back