IF I WASN'T ME (feat. Ekoh & Lø Spirit)

If I wasn't me would I still be
Someone who fucks up everything?
If I wasn't me
If I wasn't me (me, me)
If I wasn't—

Feels like I'm always drawn somewhere I don't belong
I'm sick of puttin' these broken pieces together wrong
(I) pretend I'm someone else (why?) 'cause I don't like myself
And every day, I wake up feelin' like I'm in hell

Always thinkin' happy is a place I can get
Everywhere I go is just another place that I've been
Instead of dreamin' 'bout the top, I'm fantasizin' the end
Maybe I just need somebody to tell me if—

If I wasn't me would I still need
A million vices just to breathe?
If I wasn't me
Would I be someone who isn't ashamed?
If I wasn't me
Or would I have ended up the same?
If I wasn't me would I still be
Someone who fucks up everything?
If I wasn't me
Could I be someone who isn't afraid?
If I wasn't me
Or does everyone feel the same?
If I wasn't—

Living with this thing in my brain and the pain it brought me (uh)
Getting hooked onto the same medication my dad was popping
Could've found another way to be sane, but instead I'm dropping
All these songs to try to fix me, but the thoughts are never stopping

Maybe happiness is really not a place I can get
And when I'm feeling close, I'm probably on the brink of a slip
I need to find someone to help or fuckin' empty the clip
With all these voices in my head questionin' if—

If I wasn't me would I still need
A million vices just to breathe?
If I wasn't me
Would I be someone who isn't ashamed?
If I wasn't me
Or would I have ended up the same?
If I wasn't me would I still be
Someone who fucks up everything?
If I wasn't me
Could I be someone who isn't afraid?
If I wasn't me
Or does everyone feel the same?

Pretend I'm someone else 'cause I don't like myself
Feels like there's no escape, and nothing ever helps
I pretend I'm someone else 'cause I don't like myself
Feels like there's no escape, and all I do is yell

I pretend I'm someone else 'cause I don't like myself
Feels like there's no escape, and nothing ever helps
I pretend I'm someone else 'cause I don't like myself
Feels like there's no escape, and all I do is yell
Fucked up and nobody loves me
Fucked up and nobody loves me
Fucked up and nobody loves me
Fucked up and nobody loves me
(I) fucked up and nobody loves me
(I) fucked up and nobody loves me
(I) fucked up and nobody loves me

If I wasn't me
Maybe I could find a way not to stress
Maybe I could fill the heart in my chest
If I wasn't me
Even if I found my way through this mess
Would it even stop the thoughts in my head? Like—

If I wasn't me would I still need (still need)
A million vices just to breathe? (Just to breathe?)
If I wasn't me
Would I be someone who isn't ashamed?
If I wasn't me
Or would I have ended up the same?
If I wasn't me would I still be (still be)
Someone who fucks up everything? (Everything?)
If I wasn't me
Could I be someone who isn't afraid?
If I wasn't me
Or does everyone feel the same?

If I wasn't
Me