Explanation Song

You say it's been hard not to hear from me
So let me tell you where I've been
I moved to the city where my two best friends had a vision of us

So I'm making it up on my insecurities to be the best of me
I wanna run a mile, never move my feet
I fall victim to all my possibilities
All the different people that I could be

I went to Coachella and I met a pretty fella
Who offered me some weed
Took a bite to hit her, maybe it was two
And I lost my mind faster than a cockatoo

I wounded up in an ambulance
And this is where the story really begins

After that night, I almost lost my life
Spent four weeks in a loony bin
Nothing felt real, I screamed for meals
My body seized, they poked needles in me

I had to share a room with such a scary man
I was wishing in every way for it all to end

My mom stressed out as I got out
She had no clue what was going down
I lived with my brother and he helped me recover
Don't know how I'll ever repay him now

I gave all my cash to the psychiatrist
He told me a few reasons why I lost my shit

Now fans are mad cause time has passed
And they haven't heard a word
It's hard to be on your screens before I went and found me first

But now I feel like I did
God is good and I'm alive again
I found a love and my best friend
She makes this tough world worth living in
And the boys are playing in the band again
Still trying to stop smoking cigarettes

But God is good and I'm alive again
Oh God is good and I'm alive again
Oh God is good and I'm alive again
God is good and I'm alive again