The Avoidant

You're fluent in the language of leaving things unsaid
I've memorized the outlines of your fingers in my head
You make love like you mean it, then pull away in fear
But darling you know distance is just a way to disappear

Oh, the avoidant
Don't let anyone too close
'Cause what if they see you
Oh, but worse what if they don't
And the hardest thing you'll ever do is stay
But the saddest thing you'll ever lose is me

Maybe we're too different, said behind the veil of shame
Of whatever else you need to tell yourself to sleep again
You talk of freedom like a cure, but freedom's never free
'Cause when you wake to emptiness, that echo will be me

Oh, the avoidant
Don't let anyone too close
'Cause what if they see you
Oh, but worse what if they don't
And the hardest thing you'll ever do is stay
But the saddest thing you'll ever lose is me

It's the little things that give you away
Lingering glances, the words you won't say
The way you ramble when we reach the door
Can scent your plea for me to stay a little longer

Oh, the avoidant
Always two steps away
Kiss me once goodbye
And I swear this time I'll leave

Oh, the avoidant
Don't let anyone too close
'Cause what if they see you
Oh, but worse what if they don't
And the hardest thing you'll ever do is stay
But the saddest thing you'll ever lose is me