Enlightenment I: In Question

Wipe the mirror of old reflections, as it cracks at the sight of a new
Ugly memories of beautiful things
Wondering how this will end
Abandon and relinquish my consciousness
Has the every-day taken my color away?
For years I have lived the same day
All of these faces and withered souls are as vacant as I feel
All I see in the world is self-hatred
All I see is self-hatred
Am I just seeing you, or am I projecting the inward?
Now I see, everything, known to be, with empathy
As the light fades, distress relays memories
Emotions are fading until my senses grow dim

I choose to keep myself, for I am what I have made
I will be forever waiting to feel the sun on my face
And I will wait forever
So grow away from the lifetime
You’ve spent becoming this
And just learn to breathe
How will we end?
First we must begin
Leave this behind, turn away
Every moment fleeting, lie awake
Our final moments
Lie awake, lives in vain