I Hate Myself Today

Silence!
I can't hear your reproaches today
What's wrong? Did I lose control this time
For real
Goddamned
Tell me
Who are you to blame me for your mistakes?
To push me
To deconstruct me to make me want you even more
Feel me, love me, spoil me, save me, go!
Kick me, stab me, burn me, save me, whore!

This is the first time that I'm on my knees
(On my knees)
And I hate myself today
This is the first time that I'm on my knees
(On my knees)
And I hate myself today

I tried!
So hard and nothing works fine, kick my head and say you'll be mine
Let me suffer
Go on sucking my self-esteem
Kick my head
Crush it and smile while scream
Feel me, love me, spoil me, save me, go!
Kick me, stab me, burn me, save me, whore!

I am nothing!

This is the last time
I'm on my knees
I hate myself today!

This is the first time that I'm on my knees
(On my knees)
And I hate myself today (today)
This is the first time that I'm on my knees
(On my knees)
And I hate myself today