Kurushimi

I turn to reach my weapon, but I'm paralyzed
I understood the message at the time
I couldn't stand the ending so I closed my eyes
I wanted some protection, but I never recommend

Losing sight of what's confronted you
Never any reason to refrain
What was I supposed to do?
Never any calm before the rain comes

I wanted to remember why I started here
Every day a chance to fall behind
I needed something else before I change my mind
I couldn't find the message, and I couldn't be too sure

There are two ways to reach you
Neither one made much sense to me
What was I supposed to do?
Never any calm before the rain comes

Don't check the mailbox
I couldn't find the message and I made a big mistake
What was I supposed to do?
Never any calm before the rain comes